City

I am tired of people here. They have no brains. They don't obey stop signs. They don't let you pass but take up the whole sidewalk. They stop their cars in the middle of intersections. And that's just talking about the traffic.

Vancouver seems to be the most brain-dead city I have lived in so far. It's either that, or then all the smart ones are hiding inside their houses, away from being run over by idiotic bikers on the sidewalks. The city is beautiful, but why does that mean that only stupid people stay here to enjoy it? They take one look at the mountains and decide to start smoking pot or turning into self-loving wannabe-models addicted to moronic television shows? I might be unfair, and I am sure that there are tons of people here that I actually would enjoy having a conversation with, but hey, I am only calling it as I see it. I hope that going back to school will change my perception of this place and its inhabitants.

I am annoyed. Both at others, and at myself. I made the most idiotic mistake on Monday, one that will likely cost me 500 dollars - or at least I hope that it will cost me 500 dollars, because that would mean that it is reversible. I came home from work tired and dazed on Monday, and put a dvd-rw into my computer, in the hopes of erasing its content and filling it with the fifth and sixth episodes of Dexter, season two. What I did instead though was far less constructive. I managed to click "format drive E" instead of "erase drive F" (easy mistake, one would think), and thus started erasing everything I had on my external hard drive, which happened to be plugged into my computer.

Erasing everything.

Luckily (at least this is what gives me even a sliver of hope right now), I went to play some music from my hard drive, and when it did not respond to my enquiries, I noticed what I was doing and stopped the formatting. But it had already chewed off the part of the drive that was recognizable to my computer, and as such, can no longer be accessed in any normal way. And I have everything on that hard drive! All my photos from about three years time. All my documents. I don't care about all the other stuff that is on it - music, movies, and such, but my photos... ALL MY PHOTOS! That is my whole life and all my memories. Yes, I would pay 500 dollars to get them back, and I sincerely hope they are still readable in some shape or form. I just wish I hadn't been so tired and dazed after work on Monday... I sure could use that money for other things. You know. Like food.

I am also in a bad mood due to my current temporary job. It is driving me insane. It is so boring. I have nothing to do. I read and I surf and I walk around, but my brain is standing still. Sometimes I fax stuff. Other times I mail stuff. But that's it. Out of the eight hours I sit here every day (minus the lunch breaks and other breaks I just wander off on cause nobody cares), I probably work about fifteen to twenty minutes. Sometimes it goes up to almost an hour. Fantastic! I suppose I should be happy they are paying me 100 dollars for fifteen minutes of work, but I would rather be at least a little challenged.

That is all the ranting I feel comfortable doing today. I hope things will feel better when my classes start. At least, yes, thanks for your comment Chris, I did get that student loan. But I also have to pay it back one day, and now with 500 less dollars. I wish I would win the lottery.